I have grown tired of it all. I'm just watching my mind deteriorate day by day. I feel the same, whether I'm on meds or not. I have to lie to everyone to protect them.
I looked at the clock on the wall and I couldn't recognize a single number. Someone came up the stairs and said something to me — something that I couldn't understand or interpret. I couldn't even recognize who they were. I couldn't even tell if they were human or not. I looked around my house and saw colors I've never seen before, and objects that were impossible to describe.
I ran back into my room and locked the door. Everything's alright here. I will never go out of my room. I hear them, banging on the door and screaming in some other language. I won't go outside ever again.
Pacing around aimlessly in my room. Pain has left me directionless. It's all so confusing..
Do you see it?
You can see it too, right?
Right?..