I feel so sick. So disgusting. I keep doing stuff I know I'll regret later. My stomach is diseased. I've had nosebleeds almost every single day. How vile. I keep annoying people with my sickness that can't be cured. I really wish it could be cured. Otherwise I won't be bothering people with my presence. It's a mind sickness. I've tried everything but I keep regressing back into this state. I wish I could be on some medication that could stop these feelings, or have a lobotomy. I don't know. I don't know half the shit I think or say. I'm so tired and weak. Utterly tired. I want to sleep for a week. I wish I could just take a break for a week and go into a good dream. I don't think anyone would bat an eye or even notice.